Thursday, August 12, 2010

A pathetic throwback

Via here
Ok, a while back when I started this whole "Thursday Throwback" thing I said I had some super emo, lame, old blog posts to share. Well, lovely readers, today you get to see one. Feel free to make fun :)

Died Happy
My lungs feel full but yet I can't breathe, I lay there gasping. My eyes burn and struggle to stay open. My body feels like it is made of lead, there's no way i can ever lift it. My mind is going a mile a minute trying to save myself, trying to figure out how to get out of this, to stay alive. I'm drowning, drowning in thoughts of you.
All the memories we have come flooding over me and I'm overwhelmed. I cant get out of this, the more I struggle and try to push through, to save myself, the more I sink. I get my head above it all just long enough to breathe...but once I catch that breath it all comes crashing over me again and I'm under once more...

I think of you. The times we spent together, the day we met, the things we'd talk about, the places we'd go, the dreams we shared with each other. The times when you'd hold me in your arms, when you'd make me feel safe...when we were together.

Finally, my thoughts stopped, my lungs filled, my eyes closed and my body floated to the top...but I had a smile on my face. You always did make me smile.

Ahem, are you still there? Or did I scare you away with my depressing teenage thoughts?
I can assure you that I was not typically such a sad sounding girl but we all have our moments right?
I'm also happy to report that I'm an incredibly happy, alive, 20 something now :D

P.s. I'll be back to more with a fun post. Promise!

1 comment:

  1. Wow. When one can feel another person's emotions through reading his/her words...you've done it.
    You may want to consider writing, seriously. I have just read your words three times and can honestly say I have been there, I have felt what you just described, yet I am certain I could never put it into words with the emotion and passion that you did.
    There is nothing lame at all about it. Every girl (and guy) has gone through a broken heart and can relate. :)